The Fault in
our Stars by John Green
February 20, 2014
Part 1
“It would be
a privilege to have my heart broken by you.” Augustus Waters - TFIOS
Everybody
falls in love, and when they are in love they would risk and do everything just
to make their special someone happy. Like Augustus Waters – an amazing
basketball player, that is until he got cancer and an amputated leg that came
with it - , who was madly, deeply and unconditionally in love with Hazel Grace
Lancaster – who was also diagnosed of having a cancer -, the one he met in the cancer
support group. Augustus realized that she is the piece that was missing in his
life and because of that Augustus will do everything just to make and change
Hazel’s perspective about life.
Teenagers at
my age fall in love too. And I can’t deny the fact that I also felt the feeling
of being in love. True, when you are in love you would risk everything and do
everything just to make your special someone happy, even if it’s wrong and bad,
you’ll sacrifice. When I entered college, I’ve been to many kinds of
relationship and I’m not totally serious about that because at first I thought
I am still young and not ready to fully give everything in the name of love.
Even if it is the way how I see things, I still get hurt but not that totally
“hurt” , it isn’t a big deal for me though and I know it isn’t true love. But
everything has changed when I met *Green* (Let’s just name him Green, because I
don’t want to name names.).
Like Hazel Grace, when he met Augustus it changed
her whole perspective about life. Hazel Grace think that she is a bomb and
someday she’ll explode and everybody who is with her and surrounds her will get
affected. And because of Augustus, Hazel changed. Green also changed me. He
totally changed me. He thought me everything how awesome and great being a
“Busy and workaholic person” is. Yeah, he is always busy but I do understand
him because before I knew him, he really is a busy person, and being busy is
his way of life. At first our relationship was so envious, I can tell that
because my friends told me so. They envy me because they thought I am lucky of
having him. In the first month of our relationship, we were so happy. I was and
he was. I cant deny the fact that when I’m with him, I wanted the time to stop.
It is heaven, being with the one whom you love, you always thought that you
were the only two who exist in this world. But something awful happened, he
became cold to me. I thought that doing, making and giving everything to he
wants could make our relationship stronger, but I was wrong. He broke up with
me and it was very hurting to my part because he was being so unfair. He didn’t
even explain to me the reason why he left me. Ironically saying he left me in
the middle of nowhere.I thought it was already him. My love story ended there. He
left me and because of that I learned something about love. I’ve never loathed
him. But still I can’t forget, but I’m moving on. That’s why I envy Hazel Grace
of having Augustus, even if at the end of the story they didn’t end as
together, not because Augustus left Hazel because he don’t like her anymore but
because he died. And even if their story was like that Augustus left Hazel a
memory full of joy, love and romance. I wish there were still guys who are like
Augustus, who was willing to have the privilege of having his heart broken by a
girl who oppositely thinks the way he thinks.
“That’s the
thing about pain, it demands to be felt” Augustus Waters TFIOS
The story
started with hope , full of joy and happiness , but we all know that there’s
nothing temporary in this world. It was a heartbreaking and awful for Hazel
Grace to lose her Romeo, the one who thought him how beautiful the world is,
how beautiful living with your love ones beside you, how beautiful life is and
being “okay” not to be okay. I know it how hard being far from the one who you
love, but for Hazel Grace, her smile’s has always hopes. And I felt that Hazel
is a very strong woman, who will fight with her cancer and will live longer and
normally like the other people do. And I guess if it will happen, she’ll meet
another man who will love, protect and care for her like Augustus did.
After
reading this novel, I wonder why Hazel Grace and Augustus did not last forever
in the end. Why did the author killed Augustus in the end? Why on the earth he
did not let the two lovers continue their sweet love affairs? Will Hazel Grace
live longer? Will she move on from her brokenness not only that she is terribly
sick?
I guess in
the end Hazel will also die, and the one that Augustus let Van Houten do – the
eulogy for Hazel- will be read in Hazel’s funeral. Or I guess there will be a
twist. Hazel Grace will live longer, and by that time she will actually moved
on and she will find another man to love, the one who will love her like
Augustus did, and they will leave happily ever after.
Part 2
Entry #32
A Letter for Augustus Waters
February 20, 2014
Dearest
Augustus,
The first
thing I wanted to say to you is that “It would be a great privilege to have my
heart broken by you.” And before I thought that, you really broke my heart. You
made me cry. You tore my heart into pieces and I don’t know if it is going to
form back to its original shape. And if I am Hazel, I don’t know if I’m going
to move on. And because of that, I can really say that this is really the thing
about pain, it demands to be felt.
Augustus ,
because of you, my perspective in life changed. Like what you did to Hazel, the
way I see it from the past, it is now different. You’re an odd Gus, you’re a
bit of an oddity, funny, but it’s true. And I can’t blame Hazel why did she
fell in love with you.
At first I
thought it was Hazel who will try to change you. Hazel, who in the first part
was very hopeless that the time will come you’ll all going to die, and face
oblivion. But I was wrong, you gave Hazel hope, you gave her reason to smile,
you gave her the chance to live like there’s no tube connected to her nose from
the “tank saving life”, you’re the one who have her the chance to live normally
and happily.
I envy Hazel
Grace of having you, but now I realized I shouldn’t be, because one day I’m
going to find someone like you, but how on earth I’ll find a guy like you? I
wish I could have you. How I wish I can feel the way Hazel fell when you say
that she is beautiful, that you are in love with her and you don’t have the
business of denying the simple pleasure of saying true things, that you are in
love with her, and know that love is just a shout into the void, and that
oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and there comes a day when
all the labor has been returned to dust and the will swallow only the earth
you’ll ever have, and you are in love with her. How I wish.
But from the
moment you leaved Hazel Grace, my heart stopped. The word “why” goes out and
comes in into my mind. Why did you left Gus? But I guess there’s a reason behind
it. I wish I could talk to Hazel Grace and tell how lucky she is. How lucky she
was when she has you.
Gus, if you
were alive now. I know that Hazel Grace will be happy, the both of you will be
happy. And now that you are in good hands, maybe someday, Hazel will follow
you, and there you will be sharing the love, an everlasting love.
You’re
Friend.
Elaiza Tero
