Thursday, February 20, 2014

Reading Log #3 : The Fault In Our Stars



The Fault in our Stars by John Green                                                               February 20, 2014  











Part 1
“It would be a privilege to have my heart broken by you.” Augustus Waters - TFIOS





Everybody falls in love, and when they are in love they would risk and do everything just to make their special someone happy. Like Augustus Waters – an amazing basketball player, that is until he got cancer and an amputated leg that came with it - , who was madly, deeply and unconditionally in love with Hazel Grace Lancaster – who was also diagnosed of having a cancer -, the one he met in the cancer support group. Augustus realized that she is the piece that was missing in his life and because of that Augustus will do everything just to make and change Hazel’s perspective about life.

Teenagers at my age fall in love too. And I can’t deny the fact that I also felt the feeling of being in love. True, when you are in love you would risk everything and do everything just to make your special someone happy, even if it’s wrong and bad, you’ll sacrifice. When I entered college, I’ve been to many kinds of relationship and I’m not totally serious about that because at first I thought I am still young and not ready to fully give everything in the name of love. Even if it is the way how I see things, I still get hurt but not that totally “hurt” , it isn’t a big deal for me though and I know it isn’t true love. But everything has changed when I met *Green* (Let’s just name him Green, because I don’t want to name names.).

 Like Hazel Grace, when he met Augustus it changed her whole perspective about life. Hazel Grace think that she is a bomb and someday she’ll explode and everybody who is with her and surrounds her will get affected. And because of Augustus, Hazel changed. Green also changed me. He totally changed me. He thought me everything how awesome and great being a “Busy and workaholic person” is. Yeah, he is always busy but I do understand him because before I knew him, he really is a busy person, and being busy is his way of life. At first our relationship was so envious, I can tell that because my friends told me so. They envy me because they thought I am lucky of having him. In the first month of our relationship, we were so happy. I was and he was. I cant deny the fact that when I’m with him, I wanted the time to stop. It is heaven, being with the one whom you love, you always thought that you were the only two who exist in this world. But something awful happened, he became cold to me. I thought that doing, making and giving everything to he wants could make our relationship stronger, but I was wrong. He broke up with me and it was very hurting to my part because he was being so unfair. He didn’t even explain to me the reason why he left me. Ironically saying he left me in the middle of nowhere.I thought it was already him. My love story ended there. He left me and because of that I learned something about love. I’ve never loathed him. But still I can’t forget, but I’m moving on. That’s why I envy Hazel Grace of having Augustus, even if at the end of the story they didn’t end as together, not because Augustus left Hazel because he don’t like her anymore but because he died. And even if their story was like that Augustus left Hazel a memory full of joy, love and romance. I wish there were still guys who are like Augustus, who was willing to have the privilege of having his heart broken by a girl who oppositely thinks the way he thinks.


“That’s the thing about pain, it demands to be felt” Augustus Waters TFIOS



The story started with hope , full of joy and happiness , but we all know that there’s nothing temporary in this world. It was a heartbreaking and awful for Hazel Grace to lose her Romeo, the one who thought him how beautiful the world is, how beautiful living with your love ones beside you, how beautiful life is and being “okay” not to be okay. I know it how hard being far from the one who you love, but for Hazel Grace, her smile’s has always hopes. And I felt that Hazel is a very strong woman, who will fight with her cancer and will live longer and normally like the other people do. And I guess if it will happen, she’ll meet another man who will love, protect and care for her like Augustus did.


After reading this novel, I wonder why Hazel Grace and Augustus did not last forever in the end. Why did the author killed Augustus in the end? Why on the earth he did not let the two lovers continue their sweet love affairs? Will Hazel Grace live longer? Will she move on from her brokenness not only that she is terribly sick?


I guess in the end Hazel will also die, and the one that Augustus let Van Houten do – the eulogy for Hazel- will be read in Hazel’s funeral. Or I guess there will be a twist. Hazel Grace will live longer, and by that time she will actually moved on and she will find another man to love, the one who will love her like Augustus did, and they will leave happily ever after.




Part 2 
Entry #32

A Letter for Augustus Waters





 February 20, 2014

Dearest Augustus,

             The first thing I wanted to say to you is that “It would be a great privilege to have my heart broken by you.” And before I thought that, you really broke my heart. You made me cry. You tore my heart into pieces and I don’t know if it is going to form back to its original shape. And if I am Hazel, I don’t know if I’m going to move on. And because of that, I can really say that this is really the thing about pain, it demands to be felt.

           Augustus , because of you, my perspective in life changed. Like what you did to Hazel, the way I see it from the past, it is now different. You’re an odd Gus, you’re a bit of an oddity, funny, but it’s true. And I can’t blame Hazel why did she fell in love with you.

          At first I thought it was Hazel who will try to change you. Hazel, who in the first part was very hopeless that the time will come you’ll all going to die, and face oblivion. But I was wrong, you gave Hazel hope, you gave her reason to smile, you gave her the chance to live like there’s no tube connected to her nose from the “tank saving life”, you’re the one who have her the chance to live normally and happily.

           I envy Hazel Grace of having you, but now I realized I shouldn’t be, because one day I’m going to find someone like you, but how on earth I’ll find a guy like you? I wish I could have you. How I wish I can feel the way Hazel fell when you say that she is beautiful, that you are in love with her and you don’t have the business of denying the simple pleasure of saying true things, that you are in love with her, and know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and there comes a day when all the labor has been returned to dust and the will swallow only the earth you’ll ever have, and you are in love with her. How I wish.

           But from the moment you leaved Hazel Grace, my heart stopped. The word “why” goes out and comes in into my mind. Why did you left Gus? But I guess there’s a reason behind it. I wish I could talk to Hazel Grace and tell how lucky she is. How lucky she was when she has you.

           Gus, if you were alive now. I know that Hazel Grace will be happy, the both of you will be happy. And now that you are in good hands, maybe someday, Hazel will follow you, and there you will be sharing the love, an everlasting love.



You’re Friend.
Elaiza Tero










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